I asked if our connection has dimmed. You said never. While I want to believe that, it washed away when your next statement made it crystal clear that I don't take priority over anything in your life. So, while my mind responded "I definitely understand...", what my heart really understands is that... ~ I can't pay for or fix how you've been wronged by others ~ It's easy to be "cyber friends" but even easier to move on ~ The lures that got me are the same that repulse me now ~ A well-crafted reason is nothing more than an excuse ~ You presumed I was an average chick, receptive to a few sweet nothings and willing to give you part of me in return for a meaningless illusion of attraction ~ Perhaps you don't want to be loved ~ Maybe you're afraid someone will genuinely care for you ~ It's not my job to convince you of my authenticity ~ No matter how closely you seemed to align with the soulmate God has for me, maybe it was just a taste of what to anticipate - simply not the real deal
It hurts to accept it, but releasing you from my heart has to be part of my growth experience. It hurts like hell, but I simply deserve better.
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"Someday, after mastering the winds, the waves, the tides and gravity, we shall harness for God the energies of love, and then, for a second time in the history of the world, man will have discovered fire."
~ Pierre Teilhard de Chardin
Life, Love & Fire ~ Pierre Teilhard de Chardin
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Pierre Teilhard de Chardin
i desire to make forever memories with you not cautious but of the vivacious life and love-filled kind exploring one another in the hushed air of a misty dayspring experiencing the newness of our connection synchronistic intimate gratifying time disregarded for mere presence and harmony eluding the perception of reality adeptly entering my physical realm mutually dissolving the detrimental mask of strength pliable resolved restored hearts conspiring to be faithful to our core desires God allows me to see you in your purest form healed through connection and kismet we breathed in a struggle with self, exhaled peace and favor defining succulent genesis
“I look at you, and I just love you, and it terrifies me. It terrifies me what I would do for you.”
~ Liam Stewart
While my declaration of love is free and confident, perhaps it's a tad bit premature, but I only think of loving him. Being supportive, making his life easier and more pleasurable. The list goes on, but the truth is that while the quote above is reflective of the reassured and "down for you" side of me, that familiar uneasiness with the unknown kicked in.
Can I really just love?
Can I remove the past from the equation and solely embrace the newness and fullness of our experience? Will I be the one to eliminate the residue of wrong and misplaced character judgements to reveal his core nature? One that is giving, sincere, loving and loyal.
My intent to love is pure...at this point. Perhaps it's because I don't have anything invested yet and vice versa. I feel like I have a 20/20 perspective on this, but you never know until something triggers a heartfelt emotion - good or unpleasant. I guess realizing this is the starting line for just loving as life unfolds :-)
Just Love...Can We?
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