Comes The Dawn ~ Veronica A. Shoffstall

After a while you learn the subtle difference 

Between holding a hand and chaining a soul. 

And you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning 

And company doesn’t mean security. 

And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts 

And presents aren’t promises. 

And you begin to accept your defeats 

With your head up and your eyes open 

With the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child. 

And you learn to build all your roads on today, 

Because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans. 

And futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight. 

After a while you learn 

That even sunshine burns if you get too much. 

So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, 

Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. 

And you learn that you really can endure... 

That you really are strong, 

And you really do have worth. 

And you learn and learn... 

With every goodbye you learn.

Notes to a Love: Familiar Seas - I'm Standing on Your Shore

I've taken a sincere deep interest in very few. After a couple near-misses I realized the cons in doing so can lead to insightful disappointment.

Perhaps some would simply call it a life lesson. Meaning the risk in attempting to peel back layers of years of emotional debris is one you can't prepare for. So your intention of diving in must be as pure as humanly possible.

Each fragile vessel is different...

Some are rusted from neglect of body, mind and spirit.

Some tattered and torn from trying to hold it together during the good and bad.

Some have been twisted into a shape brought on by years of secret pain.

One could argue this is more so a result of deep-seated distrust, yet I tend to think there's a higher degree of insecurity swirling around. Coloring the esteem with an outward appearance of confidence that screams "See me! I'm worthy...right?"

The "danger" in loving, or merely caring about, this person is the thin line that any words uttered, actions taken...or not...can lead to misunderstanding. But, the kicker is, it's NEVER their fault. And, depending on where they are in life, you may bear the brunt of loves past, present and future. Yes, all wrapped in a twisted heap with hope of a breakthrough that's never wise to bet on.
 
You shouldn't have cared about them in the first place.

You shouldn't have assumed anything, because if they don't acknowledge it, it didn't happen and you're the bad guy.

You should process your emotions like they do...based on the "threat level." While you both know the only real threat is feeling something other than lust. A connection, kismet, friendship, more or less may be enough to send the vulnerability task force into full action. Defending every possible breach of their heart, mind or soul.

You should've known their pain was private, yet their innermost yearning is to have someone....only one....to find relief in. Not an empty physical relief. Not a superficial tug and pull that never reaches a depth of meaningfulness.

The one who understands, appreciates, respects and nurtures an individual's soul. The one whose calling is to listen, empathize and be mindfully present in the midst of a tornado of self-doubt, complacency and going through the motions.

At the heart of all this, when an exit seems more wise than staying put, there's always an occasional wave of perfection that whispers "be patient".

Notes to a Love: How Things Appear

Those who know you wonder why. Puzzled that I'd allow you to live in my mind for free. That's not only untrue, but opinions are irrelevant. It was a comfy nook in my heart you took up residence in -- intentional or not -- I wanted and welcomed you there.

Surely, they understand how your charisma wins over others. What they don't know, and is nearly impossible to explain, is how you won me over. I'll admit that the first time we met I was totally caught off guard. Disarming me is not always easy, so I was stunned to feel a kismet. Oddly feeling that we'd met before yet total strangers in a physical sense. Maybe so much time had passed since I last felt the freedom to be the feminine, sensual being I am. Your presence blankets me in safety, comfort and genuineness. I needed that relief, but hadn't expected to immediately love you like I did.
 
On the flip side, most don't know the man I know. The one who's easily hurt. The one whose outward appearance screams success, confidence and fortitude. Yet, this same man self-identifies as a "difficult" person to deal with. Others have no idea we have a great deal in common outside of the obvious. You see, I'm a maze-making saboteur also. An agile runner from the emotions that pour over me like rich, hot caramel mixing with ice cream. I slip to the side, hoping you'll crave enough to be spoon fed instead of devouring without experiencing the sweet decadence of possibility. And, by the time you think you're ready to push away the last portion...there I am...the perfect last taste.



Word Play: If Only....When and Where It Fits


Source: Grammarly

This got me thinking about how such a seemingly simple word
- only -
can vividly describe various forms of a personal connection.


It's placement, and more importantly, intent emphasizes or minimizes the importance.

~*~*~*~*~*~

She told him that she only loved him...

 She told him that she loved him only...

She only told him that she loved him...

Only she told him that she loved him...


Love...Light...Go...

So miss him. 

Send him some love and light every time you think about him, then drop it. 

You’re just afraid to let go of the last bits of him because then you’ll be really alone, and you’re scared to death of what will happen if you’re really alone. But here’s what you gotta understand. If you clear out all that space in your mind that you’re using right now to obsess about this guy, you’ll have a vacuum there, an open spot – a doorway. 

And guess what the universe will do with the doorway? It will rush in – God will rush in – and fill you with more love than you ever dreamed. So stop using that boy to block that door. 

Let it go. 

Eat, Pray, Love ~ Elizabeth Gilbert

Is There Shame In My Game?



 Your lack of readiness is an illusion communicated by shame-ridden parts of you that will forever have you believing that you have to take a few more steps until your real life begins. It’s an illusion of epic proportions. Get to it, brilliant being. There is no need to procrastinate the gateway to wholeness—it stands before you with your name on it. The world is ready for what you have to offer. No time like the presence.


As much as I try to convince myself that I'm fully ready to accept another into my life, the truth is there's some residue dating back years that could interfere. Allowing it to hold me back from fullness of life and love doesn't make sense. The days are fleeting, it's now or never.

Can YOU Spare Some Change?




Molly Mccord 

embers

can you find relief in my bosom? 
reality in my wisdom? 
place aside pointless power struggles?
we were destined for dissuasion

no preordained honeymoon 
void of fireworks and passionate dreams 
a Renaissance of sorts 
you'll find me amongst a sea of the unloved 

drawn in as bees to the sweetest perfumed blossoms 
carefully timed yet empty lullabies 
disillusioned by stone cold hearts 
why is the toll always so high?

firm stances at the drawbridge 
painstaking lifting to reveal all we were meant to be 
hell on earth when brilliant light conquers the dark 
sacrificing love for the comfort of emotional abandon 

trusting in evolution of a magnetism designed to disarm insecurity 
allowing one's eternally soul-filled awareness to 
...slowly burn away


© 2014 MCG